1st day holiday.. actually also not really holiday la, jz i apply 1 week leave for study, coz got exam on coming friday.. 2day i wake up at around 10.30am, finally can wake up base on what time i want.. so nice.. hehe.. my dad thought i terminated by company coz saw i didnt went for work, hehe~ sometime when my dad good in mood, he like to joke also.. lol

after on9 for awhile, i went out to buy my lunch.. after that, then i started to study ady.. long time didnt touch my notes, really miss it.. i non-stop study for almost 4~5 hours, then i only on my computer back.. then i saw isaac msg me in my facebook, told me that i closed 2 sales 2day, wow~ no working also can close sales, hehe~ but i really wan to thx to jess.. coz she helped me to do follow up this early morning, helped me to call my candidates to remind them go for interview.. houto ni arigatto ne~

after bath and dinner, i also got study for 2 hrs.. i really feel happy to get back the feeling in study.. feel so nice.. not like working.. annoying..

then i chatted with aaron jz now after finished my study, i told him i cnt sleep coz my mind full of notes that i study in whole day.. he accompany me to chat for awhile although he going to sleep soon, thx ya aaron, so nice to me, 2ml need to wake up early but still accompany me to chat.. thx for ur advise and concern..

actually i know many ppl also concern bout me, like xonos, eric, jess, charlene, even my supervisor, isaac, they know i facing some problem recently, keep on gv me advise, ask me ganbateh, must study hard.. honestly, my heart really feel touch bcoz of them.. thx q so much guys..

i know i cant bcoz of the problem in love, then make my whole life destroy.. jy can act like nth happened, why i cant? i also can do that, mayb jz take some time.. i know i can do it.. jz will feel suffer now, i need to let go, i muz let go.. we're jz like 2 person from different world.. imposible to be with togather, not anymore.. i need to be strong enough, to make this suffer away from me, out of my mind..

actually i need to thx to jy too, if not bcoz of him, i'll nvr know who's the useless guy in the world, how the useless guy will do when he facing problem, will jz act like turtle, hide himself away, not even brave to face the problem, jz will said duno want to say what, everything jz duno.. what a poor guy he is..

i know i deserve to get a better guy..

almost 1 month i break up with jy, honestly, i still miss him, although he treat me bad.. really bad.. what can i say now? jz.. heart still will feel pain.. really pain

2day i really feel moody.. thought can go clubbing, but at the last minute, all fren gv me "big aeroplane", all dun wan to go ady.. i jz go back alone by myself, take lrt, take bus and walk.. that time ady 8.30pm, i still need to walk home alone, really feel angry..

after reach home, i rest awhile, on my computer and listening song.. thought i'll feel better soon.. then i followed parents out for dinner, my dad bring us to "113 restaurant", damn.. why? i really feel not wanna to eat here.. coz i always came here with jy last time.. make me think back many thing last time when we were 2gather here..

same place, but ppl ady different.. i order the same food, but ady not as delicious as b4 i ate.. i cry.. cry inside my heart.. jz cnt stand for it.. i really miss him.. why he never know me..

i cried ahter get back inside the car when on the way going home, my parents didnt say anything.. jz act like nth happen, maybe this is the best way for me.. for not asking me anyting..

i still miss u so much

2day i jz chatted with xonos.. he asked me why so long didnt update my blog.. well, i jz too bz recently.. working.. thinking thing.. not even enough time to sleep.. can also to be mean that i didnt slept well almost every night, since last week..

firstly is bcoz of my job, pretty much presure.. everyday is target target target.. interview ppl, ask all the same question.. then doing match job, called back the candidates, ask them either interest or not, sometime will also scolded by them coz dont like the job we offer fo them.. haiz~ then typing RO.. everyday almost 8pm only can go home.. sometime even later than this..

but the most reason to make me feel tired bcoz of jy.. i know he's not happy recently, bcoz of his result.. i jz thought i can accompnay him when he's not happy, i try all my best to do my job fast jz so that i can accompany him after work, i told him that i can go find him by myself, he jz answer me no need, he's fine, but wat he did, wat he said, all seem not fine at all.. this really make me so worry.. make me think so much, let me feel like he's going to leave me.. i really feel scare for this.. duno wat happen to me..

when i asked him please let me meet with him, i asked.. as usual, i'll not ask ppl in this way, i know i'm a proud person, i not even ask for this before, but i did it, jz for him.. and, his respon is "dont want la, please.." GOD.. i can heard my heart break in pieces.. how can he be like tis.. damn

i cried for few days, every night, everytime, when i read back his msg which sent to me.. still remember how sweet everytime i read his msg last time, miss it so much~~~ i like when he calling me 'dear', i like when he holding me tight, i like when he play my hair.. damn, now all this make me cry again.. jz cant control my tears.. i know i'm not such person like to cry, but.. it's jz hard.. too hard..

anataga koishii.. hontou ni koishii..
miss u so much

20/11/2008
this is the 1st day for me and jy.. ya, i ady be with him.. now he is my bf.. actually i knew he like me since we meet at pavilian.. i jz never think bout i'll accept him on tat time.. but when i followed him to genting, he suddenly kiss me, truely tell u guys, my mind really blank off at that moment.. but i also dont hate what he did to me too, i didnt push him away.. jz abit surprise only..

then he brought me to a garden, the way he took my hand, the way he huged me, i like it very much.. he always treat me so nice, take care of me, take food for me, he always surprise that i can eat much, bcoz my hv a small size of body but still can eat much.. hehe~

more and more when i b with him, more and more i realize that i like him so much.. i like the feeling when be with him 2gather, peaceful and comfortable.. sometime he'll do something stupid, like ytd i called him, asked him whether ady start working or not, he thought i said i ady start work, then he said ok lo and straight away off my call, thought i bz on tat moment.. after tat i sms him back and said "i ask u iznt start working, u off my call, walao eh, u wan die iznt?" then he quickly called me back and said sorry.. haha~ actually i didnt angry at all.. jz.. haiz~ yalo, sometime he'll like this.. hehe~

wanna upload some pic, rainbow, he asked me to see when on the way back from genting, so beautiful~~

2day is my 2nd working day in 3rd week, suddenly feel everything hv been change.. too fast, hard to accept it.. for example, in the 1st week, i jz need to prepare 5 resume out, usually we called it "RO", then in 2nd week, target increase to 8's RO, and now, my target increase to 10's RO per day.. god damn it.. it's too hard.. jz like everyday keep on chasing for the RO, no. of interview per day.. damn tired~

jz now isaac asked me to gv him 5 candidates for 2ml interview, must done in 2 hrs.. it's a Sales Promotor position with 1 yrs contract.. damn.. it's really hard to find candidate which interest with it.. somemore prefer male candidate, if the female candidate is pretty, still can consider.. walao eh~~

of coz, after 2 hrs gone, i failed in doing this, isaac's face turned black.. asked me 2day no matter how i must gv him at least 3 candidates.. of coz finally i also sucessed to gv him what he want.. if not i cant go back home 2day, maybe now still in the office.. but he also said that i must at least close 1 sale b4 this friday 5pm.. damn it.. i still wondering that i wanna take leave and follow fabian and jia yong to genting that day.. now really hv no idea what to do ady..

too presure in this job.. i cried in toilet jz now.. alone..

Sorry guys, long long time didnt update my blog ady.. gomenasai~~ (*人*) now i jz make my 2 weeks in summary..

3/11/2008
start work in 1st day, 8.30am, i meet with a new fren, Ain, a malay girl, very frindly, she started chat with me 1st, coz sometime i'll be shy to make fren with other pl, then Hani, 1 of the staff, brought us around the office and intro other staff to us.. our company got 2 offices, 23A and 25, i and Ain work at 25 floor.. at 25 floor got my supervisor, isaac, he is a very nice person, like to teach us thing, then Sarlene, also a very nice sis, teached me a lot of thing, then is Shasha, very serious when doing work.. Iyvin, nice and cute sis, kelly, also nice person, and Nisa, Claire and elaine.. the staff at level 23A is Ms Kim, my manager, very strict person, Liya, assistant manager, evan, kavitha, logee, stella, gf of isaac, hehe~ then stephin, she dont like in teaching ppl, i also duno y..
1st day learned how to copy resume from website, then print out and call candidate from interview in 2nd day.. jz a simple job..then everyday at 6pm got debrief, need to report to manager ur sales, no of interview, no of close sales, if cant hit the target, will get scold..haiz~

4/11/08
start work in 2nd day, i came late, bcoz of too many ppl in LRT and monorail, i cant get in easyly.. hani got black in face when i got late, actually she is the admin assistant in office.. the i started sat in in interview room to learn isaac and sarlene how to interview candidate, i sat in almost 10 times, until i ady can memories whole process of interview, then i started interview candidate with ain, after that now i ady can handle pretty well in that.. of coz, i'm a fast learner, hehe~
then i started to learn how to do the job matching, sarlene teached me well in this, i need to job down all the job order after debrief, then from that match the suitable position for candidate, in this we need to consider bout candidate higest education, working experince, location prefer to work at and expected salary.. very challeging.. but also very tired too.. OT until 8.30pm, get back home at 9.15pm, after take dinner and shower, almost 11pm, then need to sleep ady, no time to play at all.. cry~

5/11/2008
3rd day, sarlene took ain and me ate dinner at genting crossway, malay food, i ate many, when sarlene saw my lunch, she surprised.. i usually eat a lot at lunch, hehe~ then i started to learn typing RO, resume out, need to retype candidate's resume using our comapny's style.. target is last list 5 RO per day.. haiz~ 2day OT until 8.00pm.. head-ache while got back home..

6/11/2008
2day i over slept, this make me rushed to work, when i wanna run across the road, i didnt saw a motomike came to me, then i got hit of it, my left hand and leg got hurt, i called isaac and inform him i'll be late coz of the accident, after i reached office, i cry in toilet, too scary, then i fell heart pain, mayb bcoz got scare of accident jz now.. sarlene put handyplus on my hand.. when feeling better, then i quicky get back to my work.. hv a bad day 2day..

7/11/208
2day i arranged 1 of my candidate to another company for 2nd interview in the position of card assistant, he ady promise that company that he'll start work on monday and will come sign contract on monday, i thought i going to be close sales soon, but something bad will be happen soon..
i interviewed a handsome candidate 2day, fabian, he brought along his fren, kit wei and jia yong, for the position of roadshow executive, basic salary is 1.8K + RM500 transport claims + OT.. salary higher than me, damn~ i should be apply this job at 1st, haiz~

8/11/2008
2day is saturday, wear casual, i wear like normal to work, even is saturday, LRT also got many ppl going to work jz like me, haiz~ once i reached my office, iyvin a bit shock when saw my clothes, actually nth special, jz in cool style, she said she wanna say 'yo, wat's up, check it out' to me coz i looked so cool, hehe~ lol~ 2day jz work 3 hrs, from 9m ~ 1pm, then i went back home to sleep, so tired..

9/11/08
sunday, i woke up at 10am, coz i still got tuition class at 11am, but my students didnt came coz some personal reason, i jz watched movie and sleep for whole day, finally can relax, i slept like dead pig that day, too tired, hehe~

10/11/2008
2nd of the week, i told 2day my candidate will came for signing contract, but he suddenly dont come and answer my call, i called to his house, his mom pick the phone, i try to explain to her but still get scolded, bang my call somemore, what a fucking idiot.. i ady promise my customer and that company also ady prepare the offer letter for him, how can he broke promise like this..
i told isaac, he realised that i get buli by my candidate, he also very angry, he then told the idiot's profile from my and gv him a black listed, then told me dont be worry and angry anymore.. wah, he really nice~ hehe~ sarlene told me that once a candidate get black listed in jobstreet, he'll very hard to find job in website anymore.. but i wouldnt feel sory for him..
2day after debrief at 6.30pm, we all need to go KLCC to jog.. this is a must bcoz manager want us to hv exercise besides that working in office, they said need to run 2 rounds, then i jz follow.. at 1st i'm the faster, then evan over me bcoz i getting tired, but i sure dont saw other ppl over me.. once i finished 2 rounds, they all ady finished and jz waiting for me, they all said they ady run 2 rounds, must be lying to me, so bad~

11/11/2008
nth special for 2day's work, i took some pic from my office, level 25, quite high, very nice view from here.. hehe~



12/11/2008
day fabian and jia yong came to the office to sign contract, they are short-listed, i finally close my 1st sales, hehe~ afer debrief, ms kim asked me, ytd i 'run' 2 rounds at KLCC, i answered yes, all laughed at me, coz they all jogging 1 run only but i running 2 rounds, then she also ask me iznt i eat as much as isaac, she surprise, bcoz isaac is a fat guy, i so little but can eat as much as him, hehe~

13/11/2008
2day work nth special, i call fabian and jia yong to remind they for their training, i really not such annoying person, keep on calling ppl, but this is my job, jia yong and fabian said they can understand me.. so good they really can understand me.. hehe~

14/11/2008
2day is my mom's birthday, i get back early at 7pm, thought can celebrate with her and family, but my dad is busy for his work, is make mom not feeling so happy, she jz shut herself in room.. after dad came back home, he took bro and me out for dinner and bought a chocolate cake for mom..
i exchange my msn with fabian and jia yong, i chatted awhile with jia yong then i offline took shower and sleep, coz 2day tired.. b4 i slept, i sms fabian remind him dont be late for 2ml, he reply me that he still wanna out later for clubbing, haiz~ so many activities at night..

today i woke up very early.. around 8am, it's very early for me, hehe~ 2day i had an interview, at KL, i was not so sure where exactly the company at, so i needed to reach there early a bit to find it out.. after dressed up my formal cloth, i looked myself from the mirror, realize that i really old enough to be mature.. old ady lo~

after took my breakfast, my bro sent me to the LRT station, i took LRT from Ampang station to Hang Tuah station, then turn to monorail to Raja Chulan station, my company is Recruit Express Sdn Bhd, inside the Menara Standard Chartered, jz in front of the Wisma Genting.. after went inside the building, god, so big~ i jz like the lady jz out from small village.. hehe~ after register at the counter, i went up to 25th level..

when i saw the the door of the company, i only realize that this really is a professional company, how to say, all dress up so formal, walked very fast, like rushing for many work, wow~ surprise me.. since i ady reached there, so i jz can walked in for interview.. i saw many ppl came for interview too, jz like me.. when i was filing the form, i heard an interviewer got scolded by the supervise, so loud until i can hear so clearly outside the room, the supervise said "u said u're a hardworking person, then y u said so?" maybe the interviewer cant answer him then make him angry.. wow~ i was so scare~

after done my form, then my interview started.. a girl came to me, hu~ i was so lucky, the girl explain to me what normally my job need to do, when we received a request for our costomer, mean interviewer, we need to the analyse their resume, then find a suitable job for them, then need to arrange interview for them, retype their resume, email them to other company.. all that work, sound like easy, but actually it's very challenging, need to hit the target for everyday and month too.. she keep on asking me can i handle such pressure job? will i cry easyly? wow~ this really make me scare.. but of coz i dont answer her like that, jz said every thing is ok for me, i can accept.. then she gave me a task, i dunno what was that, jz for testing i weather i'm an easygoing person, can handle pressure or not, will cry easyly or not.. haha~

after done that task, another person came to me for 2nd interview.. OMG, was the supervise, althought i was scare on that time, but i still acted like nth.. he asked me to introduce myself, i said i'm a fresh gradaute, hv no experience, but i'm a hardworking person, i like dare challenging job coz i like to learn new thing and improve myself, i'll try all my best to do the job well.. then he asked me "u jz wanna try to do well?" i said "oh, no, i'll jz do it well" then the supervise laughed and said he like me saying so.. hu~ i thought he'll scold me like the interviewer jz now.. actually he also quite nice too..

after all had be done, he decided to accept me as Temp Recruiter, bcoz i said i still waiting my result and not sure will back to continue study o not, so he jz give me a 3 months contract.. that's y is a temporary job.. basic is RM1200 per month, OT hrs is RM8 per hrs.. normally OT is a must for all stuff, so over all my salary should be around RM1500.. it's really so much for me..

then he let me sign the contract, another stuff came to me helped me file in EPF and SOSO form, then explain to me all the rules, dress up all that.. wow~ so many rules
after all done, then i leave the company.. went to Maybank at Wisma Genting, open an account there.. pay rm50 and get a new credit card.. very nice..
then i took monorail, LRT and bus to get home..

that's y now i'm so tired.. wanna sleep ady.. ja, minna oyasumi.. ^______^