2day i jz chatted with xonos.. he asked me why so long didnt update my blog.. well, i jz too bz recently.. working.. thinking thing.. not even enough time to sleep.. can also to be mean that i didnt slept well almost every night, since last week..

firstly is bcoz of my job, pretty much presure.. everyday is target target target.. interview ppl, ask all the same question.. then doing match job, called back the candidates, ask them either interest or not, sometime will also scolded by them coz dont like the job we offer fo them.. haiz~ then typing RO.. everyday almost 8pm only can go home.. sometime even later than this..

but the most reason to make me feel tired bcoz of jy.. i know he's not happy recently, bcoz of his result.. i jz thought i can accompnay him when he's not happy, i try all my best to do my job fast jz so that i can accompany him after work, i told him that i can go find him by myself, he jz answer me no need, he's fine, but wat he did, wat he said, all seem not fine at all.. this really make me so worry.. make me think so much, let me feel like he's going to leave me.. i really feel scare for this.. duno wat happen to me..

when i asked him please let me meet with him, i asked.. as usual, i'll not ask ppl in this way, i know i'm a proud person, i not even ask for this before, but i did it, jz for him.. and, his respon is "dont want la, please.." GOD.. i can heard my heart break in pieces.. how can he be like tis.. damn

i cried for few days, every night, everytime, when i read back his msg which sent to me.. still remember how sweet everytime i read his msg last time, miss it so much~~~ i like when he calling me 'dear', i like when he holding me tight, i like when he play my hair.. damn, now all this make me cry again.. jz cant control my tears.. i know i'm not such person like to cry, but.. it's jz hard.. too hard..

anataga koishii.. hontou ni koishii..
miss u so much