tired~~

jz after done all the housework at home... hu~~ so tired... bet ur guy'll think why i jz do some homework will became so tired like this... and bet ur guy must be dunno also how big my house is, triple storey house... (dont be too surprise...) in it has 6 big rooms, 2 living rooms, 2 balconies... (god damn it...why so big???) really dont understand why my parent wanna bought this house, jz only sweep all the floor, i really already pant for it... somemore need to mop... damn...i need to prepare medicine for my asthma... (fall in faint....)

besides that, sometime i also need to clean the toilet... i really HATE to do this... ah, my house hv many toilet too o... haiz~~ 5 toilets... really enough for all my family member to use toilet at the same time, still got 1 more toilet be left... haha~~

besides all these, in my house still can find 1 more thing is in many... that is... air-conditioner... haha~ got 6 of it... hehe~ so, almost every 1 or 2 months i'll become as a techinician for it... clean the air-conditioner, i know this actually should be a guy's job, but... my bro jz too stupid in doing this, my dad wouldnt care for this and my mom dunno at all in this (they all jz know how to use it...hehe~~), so... that's why lu...

i wonder why my parent wanna bought this house.... too big for only 4 members... somemore, why must only girl need to do all the housework, damn jealous to my bro, why boy no need to do housework, not fair at all.... >.<|||

BIG bread as breakfast

this is my BIG bread bought jz now, so big iznt? haha~ jz came out from a big microwave oven of the bakeshop... still hot~~ above of this bread full of cheese... i wonder if i eat this bread everyday, will i become fatter and fatter... haha~ very hungry now, i hv 2 start my breakfast lu~

ta ta yi ki masu...

A good fine morning

2day is a good fine morning, not too sun shine and with a gentle breeze weather....i look up the sky, and take a deep breathe... wow, feel very comfortable... what a lovely weather is this... i think i fall in love with the sky now... hehe~ ^__^

suddenly, i reliase that my plant ady come into 2 little pinky flower... so nice and pretty.... proud for myself, although i didnt gave them drank water everyday... :p i take a pic for them... so lovely flower... jz like me... hehe~ (dont u all guy also think like me... haha~~)

finally, i take my lovely flower 2gather with my lovely sky... wow, what a prefect match they are... i'm so clever, i think i got the potentiality to be a photographer... haha~ (so arrogant... bler..)

Add a nice song here

i jz add a nice song here, it's Running Away from Midnight Hour... the words of this song is very fulfill my feeling now... just like living in a jail now, all the things also control by my mom, really wanna break out the cage and keep running away...

i still remember when i study in college, the course i take really hard, computer programming, all the programming code hv 2 memories, i really make great effort on it, study until midnight for almost everyday... but why i work hard so much? not jz becoz for myself, i jz wanna prove to my parents that what my bro can do, i also can do it... i'm not a stupid child for them...

finally the final exam had passed, i came back very happy and told my mom that i score a very good result on it, but guess what she answered me, she jz gv me a cool reply "SO WHAT".... wow, what a cool reply is this, make me shocked... and sad too...

after her cool reply "SO WHAT", she kept on her sentences, told me that what ever i had done, all this things, actually is jz for my own good, it's my responsibility to do it well... somemore, good or worse, none of her business at all, her responsibility is jz grow me up until i get married only... really dunno what she's thinking about...

althought this incident ady passed quite a long time, but it's hard to forget bout it... maybe i jz so care for my mom... listening the song now again and again.....

Beijing olympic

this beautiful ball mean the earth, all the olympian from different country can be harmonious when having competition , just like we all are same live in a same earth...

Wow, it's really imposing olympics that i never watch b4... so many people... most important is, althought there are many people, but they still can arrange themselves in very tidy form...

that's my country's flag... Malaysia~~ hurei.... Malaysia boleh... (mean Malaysia can...)

those are olympian from japan, can u see it, mieke, from ur country...

so many firewood... it's so beautiful... well, they release so many firewood just to prove that China is the 1st country who invent gunpowder... i'm proud to be a chineses...

A funny firewood with a smiling face on the sky of beijing~~ ^__^

thank fren...

my emotion getting better now.. thank all my fren.. thank for ur all concern...

i'll be strong, be the kumiko as u know, always put the smile on my face... so, dont worry
what my mom said to me, that's just too hurt... so, now, i just need time to recover..
just gv me some time, i'll find my smile back... hope so...

thank ya, mieke... the pic u drew for me, really make me laugh jz now (although my tears still on my face, make me look so strange, laugh and cry...) i promise u i'll be strong, ok? so, dont worry..
the pic that mieke drew for me, he said if i still keep crying, later i'll become ugly like this... hehe~

my mom told me jz now, if i keep shut myself in the room, she'll drive me away... if really so, where else can i go?
can i go to u, mieke? (jz kidding...)

olympic at beijing will start later, although my mood not too good 2day, but i will still watch it live on tv...

gambate kumiko, gambate my fren and gambate mieke...
arigato....

lost control..

god damn... i had lost control now, tears keep dropping... why i'll become like this, why... why...

becoz of my mom, i argue with her, again and again.... i really tired for that...really wanna stop this war.. but why it still continue happening... why...

damn it... my heart is bleeding now... pain... really pain... how could u said this to me? how could u said u really wanna kill me, if can dont wana gv birth to me? if u really do, then why u dtill born me to this world.. mom, i'm really proud to be ur daugther... that ever thing u wan me 2 do, i alwasy follow, cook 4 u, clean the house, do all the housework...but why? why u alwasy so cruel to me? mom...

i know u always love bro only, but, i'm ur child too.. why u dont ever hug me when i was sad or crying? u always give all the best things to bro, i didnt jealous at all... u alwasy let bro to eat all the meat, egg, but i just can ate some vegetable, i always told myself, bro is man, need eat all this to be strong, i just a girl, eat too much will become fat.. i always tell myself this...

i know compare with bro, i always is the loser... but i ady do my best in everything... i keep work hard in my study... but why? why u dont ever look to me? mom... (damn it, my my keyboard full with my tears now..)

what i gonna do to make u love me? tell me... my heart is pain now... cannt breath... damn it...
no matter how u treat me. i still wanna tell u, mom, i really love u... i 'm not mean to hurt u...
lost control again... crying like mad now...