10/11/2009, 2.45am

10/11/2009

clock show 2.45am.. i've make myself a cup of hot coffee 2 hrs ago.. and start study FCS, Fundamental of Computer Security, it's a teory subject.. all muz memories if wanna study well in it... coffee get cold in a very soon time.. and i've used up 2 hrs to study it, but what i can say is i understand what i'm reading, unfortunately i cant memories them well.. mayb jz bcoz i'm bad in memories..

actually these few night i've started to burn my mid-night oil to get study.. sometime i did feel tired on it.. of coz not even on study, but in both.. physically and mentally.. i do really jealous on those who hv car in kampar.. at least they wont get wet on rainny day when going to Uni or back from there... i'm not mean i still not used to it on cycled to Uni, i do used to it.. but i really feel tired on it sometime, especially when sometime emergency need to go some place which muz need a car, i need to like a puppy asking or sometime even worse begging ppl to sending me there and back.. i really dun like that.. really.. but i've no choice..

if in physically like our body get tired, of coz we can get some rest or sleep to recover back.. but what else if is heart feel restless?? what can we do to reover it back? i really hv no idea on this..

i try not to exploit my emotion much to other ppl, especially family.. jz dun wan them to worry much on me.. but who's know i'm tired here?? who's know i'm lonely here?? and although they know, what can they do besides jz worry bout me?? i jz dont wanna be like that..

all i wanna is hiding the true.. and the true is i'm scare... i'm scare if i let myself to be unhappy for even one moment in front of them, the world will even crushing down and i dont know i can survive on that.. i dont wan them to have sad and worry face jz bcoz of me.. so i know i must be strong.. strong enough to take good care for myself.. strong enough to face and slove all the problem here by myself.. maybe it's a training for me, to become more mature.. jz act it be..

i'll be fine...

25/10/2009, aunt's marry dinner

25/10/2009

my aunt's get marry 2day, she weared so pretty.. i'm still wondering how come recently so many ppl around me get married.. lolx~

but the most special thing for me in her marry dinner, is her cake.. lolx~ hey guys, i like it not bcoz of i like to eat, is jz.. the cake is so special, it's build by many small little cakes.. i never see this kind of marry cake b4.. really nice and creative~

my grand uncle & me..

my bro & me..

Roger's wedding at Golden Horse Hotel..

11/10/2009

jz back from Roger's wedding.. at Gorden House Hotel.. wow~ wat a magnificent hotel.. so high class.. all ladies gonna wear dinner dress and gentlemen need to wear formal.. at 1st when walking into this hotel.. really abit frightened me.. all girls and ladies there weared so nice and pretty.. but my dress also not bad too.. hehe~ Roger so handsome that day.. and his wife very pretty too.. i like her wedding dress.. hope 1 day i also can hv a chance to wear that pretty and get a handsome husband...

the golden horse at the middle of the hall..

the roof of the hall.. it's awesome..

the 1st dish, salad with a toast bread..

2nd dish, a mushroom

3rd dish, chicken chop... i ate 2 set~ lolx~

finally.. desert, fruit vanila ice-cream.. not bad~

red wine.. i drunk 4 classes, really tasty~

pangkor trip.. ^__^

25/10/2009 ~ 28/10/2009

it's been a long time i din update my blog.. jz kinda a bz life been started since exam month.. but now it's all over and i also webt for a trip right after the exam.. completely a relax holiday trip... i went to pangkor with jess and her fren.. all are kinda funny and nice fren.. pangkor really a nice place, scene is beautiful, food not bad also ^^ (mayb jz bcoz i like to eat.. haha~).. the scene is great.. especially the sea, it's awesome~ stayed there for 3 days 2 nights.. did many foollishly and funny thing.. it's really a meaningful trip..

at Lumut's whark

1st day reach pangkor.. having dinner..
4 pretty flowers~ keke

sea side after dinner

2nd day.. it's awesome~

having lunch at mamak~

b4 dived into the sea~

after dived.. all seem so tired.. waiting boat to come take us back.. all face like waiting for rescue..

resting infront if pangkor whark..

seem like horrible.. but i can feel there's no ghost inside.. lolx~

cycled motor..

PS: jz act act only.. i din smoke ok.. lolx~

acting like cycle motor.. ( jess look funny in tis photo..)

finally day.. we went back at lumut whark..

coz still hv some photo with other fren.. will upload more photo later.. *_~

sick~

now i jz realize, it's a damn worst thing in the world for me when getting sick without family around.. no 1 know bout u, no 1 care bout u, no 1 cook for u, even worse is if dizzy fall in the room, sure no 1 will know bout it.. lolx~ but dun worry, i din feel dizzy but i fall on my bed... hahaha~

catch a cold last few day, at first i thought jz a small case, flu ady quite common on me.. but this time is different, i flu non-stop for 3 days, i ady used up one roll of tissue.. OMG~~ i wondering how come SK is ok and din get any infect at all, coz he was with me that night, then after that the next day i kena ady~ haiz~ look, i'm not that bad-hearted cursing him, jz wondering why ok~

jie called me ytd, i told him i was sick, bcome worse coz flu turned into cough, he said mayb i get H1N1, i jz like OMG when i heard that, hey jie, dun scare me ok~ scare scare alot lo~~ lolx~

but anyway, 2day i feel getting bette ady... jz still got a little bit cough, and my body feel so strenghless and weak~

suddenly realize still got some photos hvnt upload, is took with my 3 cute cousin, hehe~