9/5/2009

today jess suddenly called me out, said what she fell bored la and blak blak blak.. then ok i told her that jacqueline had moved and stay at MU ady, so can ask her out also.. then jess ask her fren from cameron drive to kl fetched her, then went MU fetch jac, then came ampang fetched me.. ask me bring along some dress.. walao, go out drink drink must wear dress geh meh.. lolx~

after when they arrived only i know.. they wan go quattro.. i was like "WHAT THE *&#$@" kena tipu ady.. coz they properly came and fetch me from so far.. so i cant say no also.. haiz~ oklo, quattro then jz go lo.. no need i pay also.. keke~~

when we reached there, drink some lo, no bad also.. then jess had took some photo with us too.. at 1st i scare i'll look ugly bcoz i didnt make up that day, but after i get the photo and see, no bad also~~ that's mean i didnt make up also pretty geh.. hahaha~~ lolx~~

recently really too free ady, but lazy to go out, since the weather outside so HOT~~~ hu~~ honestly to say, really like melting... lolx~

so wat can i do is jz stay at home and on9.. play psp.. eat and sleep..Zzz~ lolx~ jz like pig.. haha~ aiyo, holiday mah, saure like tis lo.. dun jealous ya~ ^.^

found some nice make up photo.. teaching girl how to draw eye shadow.. it's time lo, really need to start learning make up ady.. but which one more suite to me leh??

jz get a nice pretty chain... not bad too.. is in a flower shape... with blinking blinking crystal...

ytd night jz chatte with rannie.. fabian's gf.... she suddenly find me using fabian's msn acc... abit frighten me.. hehe~ but actually she is jz a funny and lovely girl... kind of frenly person... we chatted so much last night... told me many thing too~~

she showed me her room... quite small but got every needed thing inside... show me fabian's boss car.. fabian's car stereo... said if i go kampar later, i can acc her to go out 2gather with fabian and his car team members... what a lovely girl...

she used to call me 'cathy' also... haiz~~ duno when my name bcome so cute ady ya~

it's nice also to have a such lovely fren... jz now chatted with phillbert too, he said mayb he'll study at kampar too... gonna have many fren there and wont be lonely, i think... now jz waiting for the result.. really scare... duno can pass or not... still need to wait 1 more mth.. haiz~~

jz add up a nice romance japanese song, is from 福井舞 - アイのうた hope ur guys enjoy the song ya~ ^^

in the dead of night... it's dark and silent, if listen carefully, sure can heard some song sing by many different little insert...

look up into the sky, there is no cloud but stars... it's far but feel near... sparkling... it's really beautiful...

wind blow on my face... it's cold... and callous... my heart gone freezing... what make it so? i dun know...

i went back into my room...

clock... hang on the wall.... it's sound ticktack... ticktack... and ticktack...
heart.. inside my body... it's beating...

but why i dont feel it's like beating... or iznt my feeling not functioning well... or there is no soul inside... probably, i think...

usually human sure like tis, when alone... sure will think much... and from most of the thing which they think, 80% out of 100% sure will be the negative thing....

i saw u that day... at that place... u didnt come 2 me, not even dare to say hi to me?? or not even dare to face me??... but i'm not surprise... u're always like tis... is ur style, dun u??

mayb u'll surprise, saw me there... at that place... that kind of dressing... that kind of acting... that kind of face... ya, it is all bcoz of time... time, will change everything.. include ppl mindset... i know, i've been change so much... from a stupid childish girl... become now....

but 1 thing i'm very sure... my heart... din change... still the same way... sometime i really hope that it can be change too, at least now wont be so freezing... freeze myself up.... so that wont get hurt anymore... i'm scare... but u always dont know that...

i probably ady forget bout u... oh, no.. not forget, is keep... keep u inside my heart... deep inside... be one part of my memories in my life... what can i say is,

Maybe my heart will stop beating, but u will always in my mind....

hopefully can start my new life soon... very soon....

GOOD NEWS~~~~~

i finally get a psp... hahaha~~~ i know mayb ur guys will think it nth special... but for me, it's really a big good news, i finally can own a psp.. hehehe~ honestly, even i'm sleeping, i also still smiling~~ kekeke~~

actually i really need to say thx to Jie.. thx ya~ also thx for helping me to install so many Final Fantasy game for me, i really LOVE FF7 so much~~~~ and now i'm looking for ff8, duno where can get it.. haiz~anyone got any idea for this?

Final Fantasy VII ^^

Crisis Core

the graphic so nice~ \\(>3<)//

cool~~

Final Fantasy Dissidia

ytd really fell damn BLUE~~ haiz~ duno why.. mayb bcoz of the exam time-table?? haiz~ or mayb bcoz of psp?? or mayb bcoz of utar?? my future?? ah~~~ fan sei la~~~~~

2 more weeks will be my exam, 29/4... duno why, i really feel damn scare... i also duno what i scare for, i got study.. since 1 mth ago i ady start study... i got too much for this.. should be no problem ady// but why i still feel so scare... but honestly, mayb i scare the feeling of getting lose.. ya, i always is a proud person..

this few night also chatting phone with jie.. we chat alot.. really alot.. hehe~ but it's really nice chatting with him, at least he will cheer me up with i feeling blue... mayb he himself dun realize this.. he promised me will help me to find a nice condition psp b4 i go kampar, coz there sure will very boring if dun hv something to play.. anyway, thx alot, jie.. hontou ni arrigatto ne~~

found some utar photo from cari forum, was uploaded by some senior who ady studying there.. i really like the environment there.. really hope that i also can study there.. but my mom seem like dun like me to go so far to study, she hope that i can stay at kl to study... but i really hope i can stay outside, i think i really pretty old enough to take care myself.. at least gv me a chance to take care myself.. dun be too over-protect me.. i'm not a small little flower that only can survive under protection of family.. i hope i can be a strong and independent person..

it's ching hua housetype.. fabian ady book 1 room for me in this housetype.. hehe~

here is the behind street of the house

it's the garden~~


garden beside westlake



tis really nice~~

my future room~~ ^^




my toilet~~~