Suddenly feel so down...

this morning, just finished my exam paper of english for science, ah~ it's quite hard, i wrote an eassy bout "advantages and disadvantage of robots as domestic helper", sound hard iznt.. haiz~ hope i can pass this time..

didnt slept well last night,one of my friend sms me around 3am, this woke me up, the sms was about wish me happy mooncake day.. haha~ what a naughty friend, dont know wanna angry with her or thank to her.. hehe~

because of didnt slept well last night, and still need to have exam in the early morning, i felt damn blur after finished my paper.. really wanna rush back home immediately.. unfortunately, i already promised yao zhu to accompmany him to mid vally.. i've no choice and just followed him to there.. haiz~

once we reached there, he took me to MC, haha~ no bad herr~ knew i hungry and pay for my lunch somemore.. good~

waiting for another fren, a new fren, edmond, knew him from tagged, live very near from my house but never meet him before.. wanna meet with him 2day jz becoz wanted him to take yao zhu to his college.. really wanna thank to yao zhu, if not because of him, i think i never dare to meet edmond alone.. well, i'm not cowardly but girl always should be careful and protect herself well.. i always think in this way..

edmond came late becoz of traffic jam, we waited for him for almost 45 min, once his reached, we chatted awhile then his started to take us to his college.. on the way to his college, we saw many sporty cars parked beside the road, i was wondoring that i also wanna buy 1 of these when i become rich later.. duno when my dream will come true ya... haha~

then we took lift and reached edmond's college, Pratique college, for learning interior design.. quite interested.. i really think bout it before when i took computer science course, jz becoz i like drawing too.. hehe~

this college actually quite small, if compare with tar college, of coz~ haha~ the most funny was their corner called "library", just a cupboard of books, compare with the library in tar college, really big big different.. haha~

after had a look of Pratique college, we went back to mid vally and had a walk there.. edmond be a tourist guide of us, kept showing us the "famous" shops of mid vally, even the entrance he also mentioned that "famous entrance", sound funny iznt? haha~

we took KTM for going back, yao zhu back by himself from another side of KTM, i took 2gather with edmond, we went down after 3 stations passed then he fetched me home.. when i 1st saw his car, really felt wanna laugh, his both sit-cover in his car was in strawberry design.. haha~ what a lovely sit-cover, for me.. but he seem dont like it much, told me that his mother put it for him.. haha~

we chatted lot in the journey of going back home, he's a nice talking guy, so straight and cute~ sometime blur blur, sometime humor.. haha~ but unfortunately, he ady got gf~~~ i'm wondering why now i still cant find a bf, since i had broke up with my xbf 2 yrs ago~ haiz~~~

this really make me feel so down now~~ somemore i jz get a cold jz now, maybe becoz of the weather, always raining these few days.. hard to breath now~ mental and physical suffer... haiz~~~~

1st time to be a MODEL in my lifetime (^_^)v

today is a very special day in my lifetime, coz i 1st time be a model~ i never be other people's model before.. that's kind of feeling is too strong.. and very funny.. hehe~ 1st time let people make up on my face..

my title of the make up is called "mask", the person who make up for me told me this, actually it more look like japanese mask, in my opinion.. firstly, she put a very thick white powder on my face as the background of the mask, it's look very terrible~ then she started drew my eye-shodow in green colour, in between my eyes and eye-brow, she put many gold powder to make it look more shiny~ then she drew something like flower's shape on my forehead.. it's very beautiful~ finally she added 3 little gold shiny plastic under my left eye~ shiny shiny~~ haha~

Step 1 : white face (terrible.. kowaii~)


Step 2 : green eye-shodow


Step 3 : red flower shape of pattern


Step 4 : gold shiny powder between eyes and eye-brow


Step 5 : 3 little gold shiny plastics (almost complete..)




Step 6 : Completed~~

Just bought a new dress for myself ^__^

this is my new dress.. how? nice? too sexy? haha~ bet ur guys will say this dress must be expensive.. guess wrong.. this dress very cheap.. jz RM10 only.. haha~

HaPpY BiRtHDaY KuMiKO

today is my 20 yrs old birthday.. old ady lu.. hehe~
now i only realise that i getting mature, last time i dont think so, maybe becoz im the youngest in my family, all the things were done or prepared nice nice for me by my family.. but today, when i help my mom to pull out some of her white hairs, now i only realise that my mom getting old, she has many white hair now.. so pity..

that's why what shou told me just now is right, must happy everyday, dont alwasy sad becoz of the litle things, i'll always bear in my mind.. i promise.. thank, shou

besides that, i aslo wana to thank all my fren from tagged, thank for their beautiful comment and msg.. of coz i wouldnt 4get u, wong k, thank 4 count down my birthday with me.. really.. thank you very much

Am i really look like japanese girl??

today i received a FUNNY msg in tagged, below is the msg :

from Namaste,
How ru? How is everything there in japan? How is life and days going on there? I show you online now, can we chat now?

i dont even know this guy, i bet his guy also didnt read my profile properly, i write in my profile that i'm from malaysia.. why asking how my life in japan, haha~
sound funny ya.. let me think, from now on, ady had almost 30 to 4o ppls keep asking me a same question, that's "are u japanese?" god, I'M NOT JAPANESE ok? malaysian.. 100% malaysian, i'm chinese... hu~~

heart in pieces..

something had happened last night, no.. should be say, many things had happened last night... these all things, make my heart into pieces... my soul like going to leave from my body... i stared blankly to my ceiling for almost whole night.. ya, i didnt slept well last night, sure look like a panda now...

panda look.. i still remember there was someone told me that, he like my panda look..sound funny iznt? hehe.. ya.. but it's sweet and worm when i heard this.. but, now, will he tell me this one more time? i think no.. he wouldnt tell me this anymore

this, really make me sad... i hate people dont trust me, so, i trust my fren well.. but, please dont misuse my trust for u.. i hate people lying too.. so as usually, i wouldnt lie to my fren, if any private question, i'll jz tell u that i cant answer u

but now i finally come to understand that i was too childish.. how can i want people tell me all his things truely, from internet.. it's jz impossible..

but, why? why my heart feel pain? haiz~~

well.. i'll recover soon.. i think.. hope so.. i need time to get my soul back into my body, and need time to stick my heart back.. so guys, i'll appear offline this few days, if u read my blog here.. u'll know how to find me.. of coz, u still can find me if u know me well...

feel so empty..

my mom woke me up early in the morning, if normally, i sure will uproar dont wanna wake up, but today, so different.. i didnt said anything, just do what she ask..
feel so empty in my heart.. damn empty..

fate this thing, very mystical.. why i'll be her daughter, and why she'll be my mom, i also dont know... hehe..

sitting in the car, follow her to a place, well, be her bodyguard too, i'm always like this. looking in the sky through the window of the car, dreaming... and thinking bout a person, ya, thinking bout a guy, we never meet before, i knew him from internet, we chat almost everyday since a month ago, i jz know his name, his age, and everything that he had told me before bout him...

everything that he had told me, i believed.. dont ask me why, i myself also dont know... jz hope all these is true.. but, no matter it's true or not, is none of my business at all, right? he's a popular guy, but i'm jz a poor normall student.. totally from 2 different of world.. different country, different language, different mind-set..

maybe we can jz be fren, net fren.. i always ask myself not to cross over the line, the line of friendship, dont ask for more than that... but, it's really hard.. my mind not stop thiking bout him.. i think, i like him...

but, he dont like me.. i know it.. he like another girl.. haiz.. broken heart now..

this song now very suitable for my feeling, only one - yellow card


Broken this fragile thing now
And I can't, I can't pick up the pieces
And I've thrown my words all around
But I can't, I can't give you a reason
I feel so broken up (so broken up)
And I give up (I give up)
I just want to tell you so you know
Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one that gets me like you do
You are my only, my only one

Made my mistakes, let you down
And I can't, I can't hold on for too long
Ran my whole life in the ground
And I can't, I can't get up when you're gone
And something's breaking up (breaking up)
I feel like giving up (like giving up)
I won't walk out until you know
Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one that gets me like you do
You are my only my only one
Here I go...so dishonestly leave a note for you my only one
And I know...you can see right through me
So let me go...and you will find some one
Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one...no one like you
You are my only my only one
My only one(x3)
You are my only my only one!