happy internship i ever had

started my internship for almost 3 months already, i have been chosen as a Project Manager, you may not believe in that but ya, it's true... at first i thought i will only be a team leader but hell know i became the PM at the end.. lol~ I've learned a lot of things.. forcing myself to break my limit, i always know that i'm poor in many things, but i never know how bad it is, until i started my intern in first week.. i cried actually.. please dont laugh, it's just because I've been scared out by my lecturer or so called boss that what i  should do in the following 3 months, telling me things that i never know and learn, and besides that i actually also have to manage other team members' projects, and i'm like OMG, how could i able to do that without having any experience? it's just so so hard for me.. but luckily that i could finally overcame through them, of course with a lot of help from all my team members and also my boss teaching me with patient. i really feel grateful for that.

i had learned and grew in this 3 months time, started to see and compare weaknesses from me and people, 

some people maybe smart in something but always weak in another thing, even for myself also same, as a PM it's actually my job to overcome their problem with giving them advice, always give help and hint for them to solve their problem, and i actually doing it well, but, at the same time, i also always wish there will be always someone like this to help me out, and the only one person that i could ever depend right now, of course is my loved one, really grateful to have him with me in every single hard time for me.

happy chinese new year~~

now is the 2nd day for Chinese new year, like usual, everyone is having holiday day mood and so excited while celebrating this festival.. but me, have to stay at home and study...... haiz~~ why stupid mmu always and always arrange the final exam around chinese new year?? the chinese student where got mood to study?? ish~~

just came home from mamak yam cha with daddy and brother.. long time have no chitchat with with daddy.. he is a cool man, seldom talk with us.. feel good to chat with him actually.. he should chat with us more actually, i like to have a talkative dad... but i still love him either way..i saw he got hurt on his forehead, i guess maybe cause by falling down somewhere, heart-broken when i saw that.. realize that he is getting older and older, really hope that i can start working asap.. gambateh ba~ =]

been quite awhile... and things changed

been quite awhile since my last blog, things were changed... not only me, the world had changed alot too, the most sad incident in past 2011 was the pass away of  steve jobs, which who really done alot of great jobs in changing the world.. salute..

sitting at cyberjaya old town enjoying a cup of mocha coffee plus listening live band, what a nice environment for blogging. of course i'm ain't alone here, with my loved one.. already been together one yrs and 8 mths, actually we count every month, but still will lost count, he said when the longer we been together, the number of month getting larger, the more easier to lost count, quite true... ^^

already study in mmu for 2 yrs.. ah~~~ not a short period, many things happened.. but mostly was happy.. life, should always enjoy the moment right now, do whatever u want, without harming any people and thing, yes, that's life~

am i thinking too much??

my little brain think quite a lot recently.. i dont know why this will happened, it just like a movie which keep on playing some sort of questioning games.. this isnt fun and most of the times it make me emo..

my age now obviously is old enough to work and survive myself.. but i dont.. i'm still studying for another 2 more yrs to go. By keep on asking money from my family is now my only way to survive myself.. Honestly, i hate doing that.. really, i swear.. i hate the feeling of depend against people.. i wish i could do anything i can, just only by my own.. but life will always not giving people an easy way to live.

i'm not sure will it maybe because of i had make some new friends recently which are really smarter than me.. they did changed my mind-set.. i realize that there is not short-cut way if we want to success.. not even a genius,  putting a lot of efforts is the only way for that..

honestly, i know myself well, not the smart type.. so i dont know where is my limit, i dont know how much more i could do.. but still, i have to do make thing done.. because i know, that will be the only way for me, to give a better life for my family..

变了。。

不知不觉地，家里的感觉变了，气氛变了，变得不像以前一样了。。

还记得以前，和家人说话都很开心的，大家都有说有笑，虽然爸爸很少说话，但一开口说话全家都会笑翻了。。 可是为什么现在却变得怪怪的？ 也不是他们不再有说有笑，只是每当有了我，他们就不笑了，也不说了。。

哥说有时爸妈也是这样对他的，习惯就好。。可是一家人，不是什么都可以讲的吗? 多希望可以亲口对他们说“爸妈，我有一个不错的男朋友，他真得对我很好”可是妈妈就是不能接受他。。

听着Boa的 "dont know what to say now"
dont know what to say now, i just dont know to say now...

每每看见别人一家人都和乐融融的一起出去玩，逛街什么的，女儿都会牵起妈妈的手，可在我的印象中，我不曾牵过妈妈的手。。。也不记得最后和爸爸一起逛街时什么时候了。。 那也是N年前的事了。。

家的感觉，是我一直都在瞳暻着的事情，爸妈不该对孩子像对宠物一样，当他们还小时，觉得他们很可爱，所以就一直逗他们玩，当他们长大了，也就不大爱理他们了。。

我也只是想要有个家庭温暖的家而已~

another insomia night...

new life in MMU

had been started my new life in MMU since 9mths ago.. seriously, it's really too much happiness life than ever i had.. i started to have some regret that why i choosed UTAR at 1st time, it's really a mistake, for going to a freaking far and 'kampung' far to study.. too much suffer

since i'd staying here for around 9mths long, the most different thing between MMU's students compare with UTAR's students is their mindset thinking, MMU's study will really try all their best to help u, they are afraid of suffer or losing thing for giving u help, u will find some true frens when u're in problem, this's really much much different with UATR's students, i'm not saying that all UTAR's students are in this way, but at least most of them i can say..


i really appreciate to have so many such nice frens here in MMU, also also feel grateful to knowing u, my beloved, the time to be with u, i really learned alot till lost count.. u always teach me bout self-discipline which i always low in it when facing problems, i realized that i've had changed, from bad temper and till now, i cant say i'm totally having a good temper, but at least i willing to think properly before i get mad.. and also feel sorry to u too becoz of my sometimes naughty and bad ideas to fool u off.. Xp

hi blog~

it's been a very very very long time i dint update my blog.. all is just becoz i really have no time to blog, although sometime my blog ideas flooded had flooded my mind, many things feel wanna share, but so sad that i cant upload all those photo right now coz all are in another computer... ish~

ytd night had been chatted with some frens, some long time no see frens, chatted for awhile, then end convasations. But all these make me reminded bout some1, some1 which i "though" had been knowing him well but obviously dont.. how many yrs i dont talk to him ady?? hmm... lost count..

what i;m think is, in this world, there are too many people enable to know or meet with another people, so if u meet with a people and can make fren with him/her, i really believe that it's all bcoz of ur fate between him/her, so pls dun waste it easily.. and be grateful for this..

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