ytd night jz chatte with rannie.. fabian's gf.... she suddenly find me using fabian's msn acc... abit frighten me.. hehe~ but actually she is jz a funny and lovely girl... kind of frenly person... we chatted so much last night... told me many thing too~~

she showed me her room... quite small but got every needed thing inside... show me fabian's boss car.. fabian's car stereo... said if i go kampar later, i can acc her to go out 2gather with fabian and his car team members... what a lovely girl...

she used to call me 'cathy' also... haiz~~ duno when my name bcome so cute ady ya~

it's nice also to have a such lovely fren... jz now chatted with phillbert too, he said mayb he'll study at kampar too... gonna have many fren there and wont be lonely, i think... now jz waiting for the result.. really scare... duno can pass or not... still need to wait 1 more mth.. haiz~~

jz add up a nice romance japanese song, is from 福井舞 - アイのうた hope ur guys enjoy the song ya~ ^^

in the dead of night... it's dark and silent, if listen carefully, sure can heard some song sing by many different little insert...

look up into the sky, there is no cloud but stars... it's far but feel near... sparkling... it's really beautiful...

wind blow on my face... it's cold... and callous... my heart gone freezing... what make it so? i dun know...

i went back into my room...

clock... hang on the wall.... it's sound ticktack... ticktack... and ticktack...
heart.. inside my body... it's beating...

but why i dont feel it's like beating... or iznt my feeling not functioning well... or there is no soul inside... probably, i think...

usually human sure like tis, when alone... sure will think much... and from most of the thing which they think, 80% out of 100% sure will be the negative thing....

i saw u that day... at that place... u didnt come 2 me, not even dare to say hi to me?? or not even dare to face me??... but i'm not surprise... u're always like tis... is ur style, dun u??

mayb u'll surprise, saw me there... at that place... that kind of dressing... that kind of acting... that kind of face... ya, it is all bcoz of time... time, will change everything.. include ppl mindset... i know, i've been change so much... from a stupid childish girl... become now....

but 1 thing i'm very sure... my heart... din change... still the same way... sometime i really hope that it can be change too, at least now wont be so freezing... freeze myself up.... so that wont get hurt anymore... i'm scare... but u always dont know that...

i probably ady forget bout u... oh, no.. not forget, is keep... keep u inside my heart... deep inside... be one part of my memories in my life... what can i say is,

Maybe my heart will stop beating, but u will always in my mind....

hopefully can start my new life soon... very soon....

GOOD NEWS~~~~~

i finally get a psp... hahaha~~~ i know mayb ur guys will think it nth special... but for me, it's really a big good news, i finally can own a psp.. hehehe~ honestly, even i'm sleeping, i also still smiling~~ kekeke~~

actually i really need to say thx to Jie.. thx ya~ also thx for helping me to install so many Final Fantasy game for me, i really LOVE FF7 so much~~~~ and now i'm looking for ff8, duno where can get it.. haiz~anyone got any idea for this?

Final Fantasy VII ^^

Crisis Core

the graphic so nice~ \\(>3<)//

cool~~

Final Fantasy Dissidia

ytd really fell damn BLUE~~ haiz~ duno why.. mayb bcoz of the exam time-table?? haiz~ or mayb bcoz of psp?? or mayb bcoz of utar?? my future?? ah~~~ fan sei la~~~~~

2 more weeks will be my exam, 29/4... duno why, i really feel damn scare... i also duno what i scare for, i got study.. since 1 mth ago i ady start study... i got too much for this.. should be no problem ady// but why i still feel so scare... but honestly, mayb i scare the feeling of getting lose.. ya, i always is a proud person..

this few night also chatting phone with jie.. we chat alot.. really alot.. hehe~ but it's really nice chatting with him, at least he will cheer me up with i feeling blue... mayb he himself dun realize this.. he promised me will help me to find a nice condition psp b4 i go kampar, coz there sure will very boring if dun hv something to play.. anyway, thx alot, jie.. hontou ni arrigatto ne~~

found some utar photo from cari forum, was uploaded by some senior who ady studying there.. i really like the environment there.. really hope that i also can study there.. but my mom seem like dun like me to go so far to study, she hope that i can stay at kl to study... but i really hope i can stay outside, i think i really pretty old enough to take care myself.. at least gv me a chance to take care myself.. dun be too over-protect me.. i'm not a small little flower that only can survive under protection of family.. i hope i can be a strong and independent person..

it's ching hua housetype.. fabian ady book 1 room for me in this housetype.. hehe~

here is the behind street of the house

it's the garden~~


garden beside westlake



tis really nice~~

my future room~~ ^^




my toilet~~~

jz back from pc fair... abit tired, head-ache aslo, duno why.. haiz~ wei wen wake me up 11.30am tis morning, ask me accompany her to pc fair, then ok lo, coz long time no see her also.. fren mah, ask me out, sure i'll out geh~~

when i reach klcc meet with her, almost 1pm ady, then we went to take our lunch 2gather, after that then straight away walked to pc fair.. there really got many lenglui leh~~ but i also not bad la.. haha~ wei wen jz wanna ask the price for laptop only.. coz she'll go to shah alam trainning for 6 mths.. gonna stay there... not bad la.. ganbatte ne~~

this few days i keep thinking many thing.. my future.. my way.. what i want in future.. how i gonna to make it better.. mayb ur guys will say no need to think so much.. but, well.. something when i alone.. really will think that much..

chat with fabian last few days... he ady book a room for me at kampar, jz opposite his room, rm270, included all furniture, water and electric bill, broadband.. got toilet inside the room.. near utar, near foodcourt, near bus stop... quite nice also.. and he said if my timetable is match with him, he can fetch me to sch somemore... ya, coz he has a car.. he now planning to move his piano from his hometown to his room, he said if feel free i also can play piano there... knowing me like piano.. hehe~ so now i should start practice my piano skill more ady, coz fabian also good in piano... he said nightscene there nice too, will bring me there when i stay kampar..

okla, fabian, since u so nice to me, i sure will go kampar.. but not bcoz of u ok? coz i really wana go there to study only... hahaha~~

ytd jz went to pj utar there to submit my application form.. hopefully can get offer letter as soon as possible.. then can continue my study life.. i really dun like to work now.... study is better... i know what i want..

29/3/2009

i went back ipoh this day, reached there around 2am, slept.. then around 6am wake up.. wake up so early bcoz our whole family need to go to the grave and visit grandpa.. this is the 1st time we go there visit him.. he looked good, smile very happy.. ya, his photo showing all this feeling to urs.. at least i think he's happy.. jz feeling that... we brought alot of food for him.. and also his favourite XO and meat.. haha~ he sure will very happy see all the food he like.. hehe~

after that we went to a temple.. took some photos.. it's nice..

"YOU HAPPY OK, I HAPPY TOO" lolx~

Wishing tree

Cute rabbits

this really funny, it's mean "IF WANT TO SING, PLEASE GO INTO THE TOILET"

"PRETTY GIRL LIKE LOOKING INTO THE MIRROR" lolx~

jz chatted with albert jz now.. ah~ i know him quite a time also.. 1 or 2 yrs plus.. i dont properly remember.. hehe~ he jz a funny person... feel confortable when chatting with him.. hehe~

he told me many things jz now, told me not always go clubbing.. coz there many ppl smoking.. too smelly.. then i answered him, actually i also not really like to go clubbing... jz asked by fren, sometime muz i to go... somemore, i jz went there for dancing, coz i like dance...

then he said i've been grown up... know what is black and white ady... haha~ of coz i know it...

after then he show me his new pic.. he called it "summer look" lolx~ ^^

handsome rite~

i also got show his my lastest pic, with i took togather with ak ka.. he said nice, and sexy too~ but after that he said, if he is my bf, he'll not let me wear so sexy, or let me go clubbing.. then i answered him, if i'm his gf, i sure will not wear so sexy and go clubbing.. hahaha~ then he asked me, if he is my bf, will i let him go clubbing? i said i will, but must take me along too~

but he said actually he dont like go clubbing, coz wasting time & money, and unhealthy too.. that's why he hate his gf go clubbing, ya~ albert has a gf which older than him 4 yrs, should be 26 yrs ady, 26 yrs old girl still like clubbing? haiz~ that's why sometime albert will fighting with his gf, if she go clubbing, albert will go other club clubbing also, what a funny couple.. haha~

i told albert, if i got bf, sure i'll not go clubbing ady, coz i rather than stick with my bf, it's better than let other guy stick me in clubbing rite? he very touched once he heard i said so.. hehe~

then he told me his gf working in week day, that's why jz can accompany him every friday and stay overnight until saturday, sometime they sure will 'do' at night.. haha~ then i told him, it jz kinda normal thing for a couple.. no need show off ok..

he asked me iznt i still virgin, honestly told him, ya, i'm still.. he's abit surprised, then he gv me some tips, is better than find a virgin guy too, coz in his opinion, some guy will dumb the girl if the girl is still V, coz dun wan to see them pain in the 1st time, hehe~~ but after that he said, now u're special for me, coz u're still V, nowaday not much V left.. haha~

i told him, my 1st time sure will only gv to the guy who i love, and the guy sure muz love me too.. cant simply gv what.. rite? he been touched again and happy to hear that, he said i should thx for myself, then i said no, i should thx my mom coz she got teached my well.. hahaha~

i also got told albert bout xisco.. he fell sorry for him, and really scare him out, now he not really dare to smoke ady.. hehe~

honestly, i really happy 2day to hear that i'm special for albert.. paiseh paiseh.. haha~